yesterday...

i realized that fear is running my life.

kick

sometimes i think people kick me down just to see if i'd get back up.

2009

1-1-09

today i cleaned.
i cleaned my kitchen.
i cleaned my bathroom.
i cleaned my clothes.
i cleaned out my closet.

i tried to clean out the bad thoughts.
i tried to clean out the doubts.
i tried to clean out the unanswerable questions.

i took a long hot steaming shower.
almost as a finale - to sweat out the last bit of built up frustration.

today is the first day of an awesome year ahead. i love new beginnings.