the roots.

in addition to yesterday's post - how could i forget The Roots.

i went to the roots concert recently - within the last couple of months. general admission standing area. we were on the second tier right next to the walking aisle that the employee's got to keep clear for us. it was perfect. it was a really good area. and even halfway through the concert the only two people in front of us and the railing had to leave!....i wasn't leaving this area until the concert was - over. but even before it began, i started feeling like i had to use the bathroom. but alas, read above, i wasn't leaving. my bathroom feelings would come and go but i was ok. until the very very end. the concert started wrapping up and i was ready to leave. but then they started signing drumsticks and peeps were anticipating another song - no one was leaving, including us. i was ready to go and by then, i really had to use the bathroom. and then i made the mistake of turning around to see the escape route to the bathroom. there was none. in fact, all i saw were a sea of heads and everyone trying to push closer to the stage. oh boy! this was not cool. it all started flooding, in - i can't move, i can't leave, i can't breathe, i can't use the bathroom, i can't get....air. it was terrible. cold sweat all over me. (are you ok?) *shaking head*....no. i had to get outta there and even worse now i had to use the bathroom like nothing. it hurt. we tried to get out of the building fast but everyone was now filing out and i made it to the designated home bathroom just in time but....

anxiety / panic attacks - they're not fun.