tired.

i am trying not to get discouraged that the only direct companies that have been calling me are in the bay area. they've surprisingly been similiar jobs too, these cold callers know what they're looking for. i'm in the midst of firming down some appts for agencies when i get up there but i've never really worked with an agency before. but we'll see. i've been seeing some cool housing too. (it's weird, i went to the site "Rent" or something, it's a branch of eBay for housing and they have pictures like it's myspace or something and they're all peeps looking for housing or roomies. it's weird.) apparently the neighboring cities are popping up nicely as well, i.e. 'eastside', w/bellevue and where boeing and microsoft are. (brain dead now) so i literally go home and apply and search for at least 3-4 hrs/night. after being on the computer all day. it's a job in itself. last night i couldn't fall asleep. i went over to the tretasco's, got back and spent another 3 or so hrs online and then tried to sleep around 2am but couldn't, i was tossing and turning for awhile. i came in to work today - just spent. talking a little slower. working a little harder. last friday greg asked me if i was taking any time off and i said no. he said he was and continued to tell me what days. and then tells me to think about it. and let him know next week. so since i had been clocking in OT i thought that was a hint for comp time. but when he signed off today for friday off, apparently it's not. so i'm going to revoke it later on this afternoon, trying to not seem to obvious of my intent. but i need to cash it out.

it's a hard job, to be the designated person in your group to track time off and comp time. there's four of us and i've been here since january and even this coworker that started in late april has taken more time off and comp time than i. or another coworker's gotten 120+hrs comp'd (i think i'm around 4 days comp'd ytd) and it's just hard. i do have to say this is the most comfortable environment after giving an informal notice though. my boss will make jokes about how i'll miss him. or how he can joke more loosely with me since i'm almost not working for him anymore. and little things. it's comfortable and it's appreciated.