oh...

when T told me, he would've been content with never speaking to me again, I was hurt. I felt like he had bitch-slapped me across the face and said, "you know what? f! u!" he said he would have been content with seeing me passing by in an airport, me - not seeing him. and that would've been fine.

but it hit me -just-like-that- i see. because only now do i have that same feeling in me. and it all makes sense now, minus the airport.